It hit me again last night.
The process goes like this: Friday at 6pm, my weekend begins. I am so ready to relax, go out and grab a bite to eat (the kitchen is closed for business on Friday night. No cooking dinner, only snacks are available), come home and chill out, watch a movie, do some writing, spend time with the fam, etc. 
Saturday morning comes. A good day to do house projects, maybe put in a couple hours of work, do chores, catch up with friends, date night with my hubby, etc. Onto Sunday. A time to sleep in, make a big breakfast (or go out for breakfast), watch a movie, run, write, watch a football game or two, and sometimes I even stay in my PJs all day if I so desire (yeah I know, L-A-Z-Y). And then as Sunday evening descends, I’m hit over the head by that terrible, overwhelming case of Sunday night anxiety.
When I was in high school, there was nothing worse than Sunday night. This meant the end of sleeping in, doing nothing, and hanging with friends. Sunday night caused my brain to switch into dread mode thinking ahead to a week of getting up for the next five days at 6:00am, boring classes, ridiculous teenage drama, homework, and tests.
As an adult I still go through this, not exactly like high school, but there’s still that sinking feeling that another weekend is almost over, good old Monday is looming, and there’s nothing I can do to stop it from rearing its ugly head.
Messages from my brain begin their attack with all the things I have to do in the soon-to-be-here week. Usually an upset stomach ensues or a headache forms just above my eyebrows. The peaceful easy feeling starts to disintegrate and at bedtime the insomnia takes over. I watch TV or read in the hopes that my body and mind will shut down. But usually the glowing numbers displayed on my alarm clock just keep marching ahead: 1am, 1:30, 2:00, 2:30… zzzzzzz.
Next thing I know that dreaded beeping sound yanks me out of my comatose happy place. Irritated, I silence the screaming little pain-in-the-you-know-what device.
Then lie back into my pillow allowing the sudden turbo charged heart rate to calm down as I wipe the sandmen (or as my kids call them, eye boogers) out of the corners of my eyes. With an irritated sigh I unenthusiastically remove myself from the cocoon of my warm soft sheets and blanket to greet yet another Monday morning. You’d think I’d be used to it by now, huh? Well, maybe some day…
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add commentI’m with ya on this one. I can’t tell if it just Mondays that suck or alarm clocks going off too early. Possibly both. Great post!
Thanks, G! There has to be some kind of herbal supplement for this affliction… : )
Came upon this post through the ‘you might also like’ below one of your other posts…and I love it! I might have to do a post like this sometime! Thanks, you rock!
The same thing happens to me!
Hi. After reading you blog last night, it just seeemd like the right thing to do, to send you a little note to try to remind you that you are not alone and that your work is greatly valued and enjoyed by who knows how many millions. I am on medication for anxiety and depression myself and something about your blog struck a chord and sounded so familiar. I’ll stop bothering you now. Keep your chin up.All the best, Darren.
Mondays are days that I don’t dread so much now that I don’t teach in the a.m. If I sleep in a bit s’ok.
But yeah, I don’t generally enjoy Monday… I wonder how to change that…
My Sunday night anxiety really kicked in when I started in mortgage lending. I was working all the time and it was incredibly stressful. After ten years it had drained me emotionally and mentally. I was laid off then, and even though I was horribly scared about losing my job, the stress relief of never having to work in that career again was huge. Thanks for your comment, Cyndi!
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Do you get this way on a Sunday night? Or on a Monday morning?
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